Dumb Dumb Dumb

Pretty sure I failed that 2 week 10 pound challenge. Can't remember exactly when it ends/ended but there's no way. This weekend sucked. Had about 1000 calories Friday but didn't really do anything all day. Saturday walked 6 miles but had a ridiculous amount of sushi. Sunday had a salad and walked maybe 2 miles? Doesn't sound ridiculously bad, but it was enough to give me back a pound instead of losing the last couple to reach my goal.

Fie on food.

Talked to my mom on the phone yesterday. I'll be flying back home to the O-H-I-O on August 6th. Woot! Which means I have 26 days left here to lose some weight. Good news? I have around 13/14 meals left. So if I just eat every other day I should be okay. And by meal I mean a package of ramen. lol.

Once I get back I'll have to be super careful while home til I get to my apartment back at school. Will have to locate excuse to go to wrestling class early and get some exercise in. Hmmmm

Anyways, ticked at weekend. Now at work for one stupid meeting while I waste the rest of my day. Le sigh.

F Me

F restaurants. F them to hell. And F me. F me for being pissed at myself for eating probably a half cup of vegetables and like a teaspoon of salad dressing. And two pickle wedges. I wanted to cry. I felt so fat just eating that. What is wrong with me? I fele like I'm going to gain 5 pounds now. F. F. F. There's something seriously wrong with me. But Im so happy that food is so repulsize to me right now. Sick.

Day 3: 6 Pounds Later

WOOOOT! Day 3 of my fast, and still going strong. Yesterday I had about 60-70 oz of water and diet tea. I have not ingested calories in over 48 hours. :-) Hopefully today I'll be able to keep it up. I've lost 3 pounds each day of the fast. Don't know how well today will go, though. As of right now I am out of cigs. Might walk to the store on lunch and get some more. Burn some non-existant calories. Unless there's calories in espresso...? Hmmm...

Okay, just checked through the almight powers of Google. It said coffee/espresso (plain, without adding shit to it) is only like 3 calories. I can deal with that!

To everyone who is doing the 10 pounds/2 weeks challenge keep up the good work! I've got 7 pounds to go thanks to the holiday weekend. But this fast is going well, and I've got high hopes! The chance to be a Knockout is just too close to screw this up now...

Had yet another date with the green hunger creator last night, and still didn't give in! My will is strong... hahaha.

Might be going to Six Flags this weekend with my roommate and our friend from work. Im excited, but my roommate and I are both nervous. We are not pixies (It seems cruel that after losing like 136 pounds Im still not a pixie. But whatever). Sometimes we can't get into the damn rides. At least thats how it used to be for me. I know logically I should be able to now, but the old fear is still there... I wonder if it will ever go away?

On my effing period too. Sucky. But usually I don't lose weight on my period so maybe I'll drop like a beast once its over?

Done rambling for now... Going to go find some other way to waste my time at work. Boss is out of the office today through next Tuesday. At least that means 4 day w- scratch that. Just got told I gotta work on Monday. Balls.

Peace out!

4th of July Kills...

At least diets. Unless you get hit in the face with a firework. Then you just die in general. But anyways, as anticipated, the 5 day weekend royally messed me up. I'm back at square one. However, I am now fasting. I am still determined to lose that 10 pounds by this Sunday/next Monday. It is do-able still. I lost three pounds yesterday as I had:

-42 oz of Arizona diet green tea (0 calories)
-42 oz of home made green tea/Chinese senna leaf tea with only artificial sweeteners (0 calories)
-16 oz of water (Obviously, 0 calories)

The senna tea made me super sick this morning, but worth it. Its supposed to clean out your digestive system, and make it more effective. So here's hoping that a 5 day fast will knock it out. It should...

Anyhoo, time to work. Im armed with another 42 oz of Arizona tea, and a glass of water. The next 8 hours will be simple. Theeeen I go home, where the real work begins.

But on a plus note, I have broken the high munchies curse. No more worries there! If I can resist food when I've been smoking, I can sure as crap do it when I'm not.