Ana > Mia

As far as food consumption goes I haven't done well, but as far as weight goes, it's been fantastic. I've lost 19 lbs in 6 days. But not all of those days have been fasting. I binged and purged for the past two. Which was stupid, but it worked at least, which I'm eternally grateful for. I'm planning on just plain fasting til my birthday.

Definitely need to start lying about how much weight I've lost. My mother about had a heart attack yesterday when I told her I've lost 75 lbs. Prooobably because I told her I'd only lost 62 earlier in the week. Which was true at the time. Truth is a really bad idea at this point. The good thing is that, unlike most Ana's I know, I'm NOT already close to my goal. I'm nowhere near it. They're mostly struggling with ten, twenty... maaaaaybe thirty pounds. I have 195 left to lose. So even if my parents are worried that I'm losing weight too fast... They won't say anything about it. Because they know how hard it is to be overweight. They want me to succeed. They'll convince themselves that I'm being healthy even if it is blatantly obvious that I'm not. As long as they see me eat they're fine. They just don't know that after I eat with them I go home and throw it up. Here's hoping they never find out.

Stay Strong

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