Nerves

My mom just left to go back to the hospital because the nurse is afraid she has a post-op blood clot in her leg. FML. Why can't everything just be okay?

My friends asked me to go to Chicago for New Years, but she said I couldn't go because of money. And fuck it all, I can't even be mad at her because she's recovering! I want to do my internship, but its going to make life a living hell til I go... IF I even get it at all. If I don't my friend Ashley and I are going to go work in Washington for the summer. I kind of hope I don't get it... I want to go to Washington with my friend!

I've lost 10 lbs so far on this cabbage soup thing despite the fact I've cheated like the past two days. Oh well. As long as its still working. Maybe Christmas won't totally eff me over like I thought? I can dream...

Stay Strong

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