Fuck This Life

I feel like my heart has been ripped out, and crushed... My insides are all twisted around. And yet... I feel empty and broken.

My friend's roommate and I were hanging out this week... He promised he wouldn't force me into anything sexual... He promised he'd be different.

He lied.

I dont see how its fair that I should be taken advantage of not once, but twice in my life. Do I have "Low Self Esteem: You Can Fuck Her Without Her Consent" written on my forehead?

Boys lie.

I'm going to go write down every damn thing that's wrong with me and what I need to do to fix it. I need to focus on perfection. Because focusing on boys gets you raped.