Fasting is Fun! Right...

Day 1 of a 14+ day fast. I say plus, because I'm not sure when I'll get another paycheck. I get paid in another 11 days, but they won't let us pick up our checks anymore. You either have to get the money direct deposited, or mailed home. As I don't have a checking account (I don't do well with those), I have to get my checks mailed home. My 30 minutes away home. Not a ridiculously long distance, but I am really busy. So, add on the mailing time, and my busy schedule I have no idea when I'll be able to afford food again. Which could work out pretty well for me, haha.

I'm glad to be fasting again, because I know it'll work. But let's be honest here, people. Fasting hurts. I'm already lightheaded, and tired. So aggravating. Why can't I be peppy and hungry?! Grrrrr.... I hope the people around me are ready for bitch mode.

I am such a bad person. I went to a party at my friend's house this past Saturday. One of my guy friends has been in and out of a relationship for a couple years now. Right now they're off. He kept putting his arm around me, trying to hold my hand, and kissing my hands. He's a nice guy, but I am soooo not going there with him. Once I realized that through my vodka induced stupor I realized I needed to distance us for the rest of the night. One of my friend's coworkers showed up at the party around this time. I don't know why, but I was totally drawn to him. We flirted all night. He held me, kissed my forehead and hands... And then we also "fought" all the time. I love it when guys rough house with me. I am not a girly girl, haha! My guy friend felt sick, so he went to lay down. After I checked on him I left the room, and kept the door open so that he could call for us if he needed us. The coworker was in the hall having just come upstairs, and we started messing around and play fighting. And my guy friend, sweet, pure soul that he is, called out "Get off her!"

I have nooo idea what to do. My friend is nice, but I don't want a relationship with him. At all. I just hope I don't break him. The coworker is a slutty bad boy. So I kind of don't want a relationship with him either, but I like him.

GAH! Why can't my ED be my ONLY issue?!!?