2 Down...

Lost two pounds yesterday during the fast which made me happy, I guess... But I kind of want to fast again today. I am so scared to go back to eating food and seeing the numbers climb up again. :-( I just know that if I eat something it will happen. To try and dispel those fears I already did my 200 crunches for the day. I did some brief stretching and yoga this morning, but I know I will have to do cardio later because the stretching just wasn't enough exercise to make me feel accomplished.

Not like not eating would be hard today. I will be on campus from 9 a.m. to 6 p.m. which leaves me only an hour to eat before my 7 p.m. deadline. I think if I exercise right when I get home it will push me past that mark, and then I won't have to worry about it anymore. The only shitty part of the day will be working from 9 p.m. to Midnight. I always get ridiculously hungry and tired at work, which makes me angry and uncomfortable, which makes me want to cry. I'm kind of ridiculous that way, haha. I cry when I'm angry. Reminds me of Bella from Twilight. Where's my freaking Edward?

Oh, wait... I'm Team Jacob.
:-P

I had a Slim Fast for breakfast which is 180 calories. It isn't teeeechnically food, really. I'm just hoping it helps with the lightheadedness, which I'm assuming is from lack of food.

Does fasting make you tired? Because I couldn't even stay up to watch ECW last night, which I normally make sure I see come hell or high water. If fasting makes me miss SmackDown on Friday I may punch something, LOL.

I need to start picking up extra shifts at work and saving money so that I can take Jiu Jitsu once I lose a little more weight. I took Ryukyuu Kempo Karate in High School and lost like thirty pounds and a few pant sizes while doing it. I really want to take Jiu Jitsu because I ADORED karate. Its a great workout and makes you feel strong. I miss it! I just shudder to think how much the classes will cost... Ugh... Oh well. I should be able to save up the extra money I'm not spending on groceries, haha.

Stay Strong
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