Roll Along

I'm happy to say that Halloween and/or going home didn't ruin me even though a nice old lady on the trick-or-treating trail offered me candy. That's what I get for dressing up, haha. I ate about 700 calories yesterday which is horrible, but I figured it was better to get a jolt of calories to boost my metabolism on Saturday than to have my weight halt on Sunday or Monday while Im trying to start the new week of my routine. As I stated before, the 2nd week of my plan will include (with my personal changes included):

* Decrease calorie intake to 500 cals a day
* 200 crunches a day
* 30 minutes cardio a day
**Will vomit only if gone extremely over the limit with very restricted exercise for the day**

So far it looks like I will be successful. I had a boiled chicken breast and boiled broccoli for dinner which was around 200 calories. I ate a rice cake snack which is 35 calories. I'm going to have a Slim Fast tonight after I exercise because it is supposed to help with hunger. It will bring my grand total for the day up to 425. While I was at home I grabbed a more advanced exercise tape that is 45 minutes, which will fulfill my cardio for the day. Even though Im losing weight again, I'm still going to be more careful with my strength training. I want muscles when all is said and done, but I don't want to be bulky! Bulky is NOT sexy! I'm going to try restricting myself to only lifting weights on Tuesday, Thursday, and Saturday. Once I going exercising though I hate to stop! :-( I'll work on it though.

I've been feeling slightly depressed lately, but I don't have any reason to be. The stress of school isn't helping, but at least it distracts me from the sadness. I've been debating going to the school counselors for awhile, but if they find out I'm starving myself they'll try to force me to eat again, and I am afraid I'd succumb. I don't want to be sad anymore, but I don't want to risk giving up Ana either. Its the only thing that makes me happy lately! I don't know what to do! If anyone reads this: PLEASE HELP!

Stay Strong
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